“Juanita She is the restless river
running through my veins
She rides without the reins–
her name’s Juanita”
Yes I have a Juanita inside me
I always have been different from other girls and still am. My priority was never marriage. I never dreamt of that white bridal dress. My mom always called me a rebel, unfortunately no body else saw that. In fact they always think I am traditional and obedient we bita3. I always think about this. Why isn’t my true self shining. I think i kno the answer because poople will not accept me for who I am. Guys who don’t know me will think I am a bad girl because I do not want to get married, and girls will think that I am lieng”yatamna3n wa honna ra3′ibat”. So i decided that this is something very personal and that whenever the subject of marriage is broght up I will just act like any other girl would act, say insha Allah. My priority however was always my career. I noticed that this career orieneted thing turns a lot of suitors off. I used not to show it, but not intentionally, simply because I did not talk much out of shyness, so no body really knew how my charecter is. Now I am really blunt and say it out loud: ” I am married to my job”. That is why now i fell kinda of depressed that I am jobless. I lost my job a couple of months ago. it makes me feel sad that I have six years of experience now, yet I can not find a suitable job. How I lost my job, or in other words how my job lost me- is another story that I will tell later isA. Anyway back to Juanita that runs through my veins. I always wanted to make a difference in life in general and not only in my own personal life. I did some volunteer work and i wished to jon the UN Volunteers, but this is did not work out for some reason I do not know.
She lives in the heart of every
woman in the world
Within the reach of every girl
who wants to meet her(She’s gonna be ridin’ through)
Her name’s Juanita
(She’s gonna be ridiin’ free) She’s ridin’ free
(She’s gonna be inside of you, gonna be
inside of me) She’s inside of you
and inside of me, yeah Oh, go with her–flow with her
Dream with her–scream with her
Let her take over, or just get to know her
Be everything you can be
If you can find her and free her
Juanita will unchain your heartWhen someone tries to take
away the freedom of your choice
To take away your voice–
that’s when you need her
She’s there if you dare to give
your broken wings a try
C’mon and take a leap and fly,
and you can be her
Freedom, I always fought for it my whole life and still do. Its just kinda of sad that when I really needed it, i did not have it. When I was younger I needed more freedom to go out more and to do things I wanted to do. Now I have more freedom, however I can not make use of it because I lost most of my freinds, they either got married or left the country. Although freedom should be a birth right, but I am very proud that I earned my own freedom.
(She’s gonna be ridin’ through) Oh, Juanita
(She’s gonna be ridin’ free) Ridin’ free
(She’s gonna be a part of you, gonna be a
part of me) She’s a part of you and a part
of me, yeah Oh, go with her–flow with her
Dream with her–scream with her
Let her take over, or just get to know her
Be everything you can be
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